February 24, 2017
I recently spoke with a couple friends over coffee about feeling whole-heartedly unqualified for some of the tasks in my life. Motherhood, ministry, writing, life in general. Who am I to take on these tasks? Broken and bent, I felt beyond unqualified and way outside of my comfort zone.
And both friends, in different meetings, in separate coffee shops, listened patiently and quietly to my concerns and then offered the same wise response: "good."
They assured me that I was in exactly the place I needed to be. That there is safety in being outside of my comfort zone, because I have no choice but to rely on God, and the team around me. In over my head is a good place to be.
I am not qualified for the life God has called me to. I am a bible college drop-out. Mentally ill. A (recovering) drunk and drug addict. I'm opinionated and bad at math and can't keep houseplants alive. But the Lord has given me a passion. He has given me the gifts of communication and compassion. He has given me opportunities to use those gifts. And he wants me to rely on Him.
Friends, what if we are safest where we feel completely at a loss, because it is there that we have no choice but to rely on God? It is there that we surround ourselves with a team and pledge to sink or swim together. It is there that we ask questions and take advice. It is when we are uncomfortable that we allow God to be God. It is in our weakest places that our eyes are open and watching for miracles. It is there that we grow to rely on God's amazing power instead of our own power.
If I am doing life in my own power, from a place of my own meager strength and flimsy qualifications, I am limited to achieve only the things that I can achieve. But if I am living in the power and strength of an almighty God, there are no limits to what He can accomplish through me. The power of the almighty God is revealed in our weakness.
Friend, if you feel unqualified for that task before you, maybe you are. Maybe your only hope is to call on the mighty hand of God to guide you, equip you, protect you. Maybe you are exactly where you are meant to be.
That doesn't mean we don't work for it, that we don't study and learn and work hard. But that at the end of the day, we rely on God.
The question is not am I qualified for this? The answer will be a resounding no in every area of my life. The question is, is God calling me to this? Is this the next right thing for me to do. And if so, will I faithfully do my best and trust him for the rest?
We are weak. And the Lord knows our frailty. May we step boldly outside of our comfort zones and seek him there.